thsince i've got another forty minutes before my radiopulze training begins and i'm feeling a lil lazy,jus though i'd jot down a few things. In an increasingly materialistic society, have our morals been depleted? marraiges of convenience are now becoming more and more rampant and the worst part is, it may actually have been warranted. Take for instance situation A, where, to survive, a struggling divorcee marries her admirer who happens to be able to support the family. Morally wrong, yes. however, practical, yes. It seems that the line between practicality and morals are becoming more blurred in more areas than one. Morals, or the lack thereof, has seeped into the domestic households. No longer grounded in the corporate realm, it seems ppl are willng to trade uprightness for money. In fact, this line of thinkin has infected the younger generations. One such teenager, when asked, said she/he would rather have dinner in a fancy restaurant with a stranger amidst her/his family, than a close knit dinner in a coffeeshop with only her/his family around. The lack of morals when it comes to such issues has astounded me and, quite frankly, I won't stand on a moral high ground myself and accuse these ppl cos I realise i'm also getting sucked into the bottomless pit of materialism. With an increasing belief in such 'morals', one wonders what would happen in the future. On top of that, these moral-less teenagers are also becoming more and more spoilt. With the advent of divorce in the books for their parents, the need to persuade their child to have preference over their ex-spouse would spur many parents to climb the Great Wall of China to please their children. As such, the children become more demanding and, when (finally) they are reprimanded for any bad behaviour, the instant thought would be "I didn't do anything wrong". Excuse my tirade but when i look around at a rapidly changing (negative) society, it worries me and I wonder, what can be done at this stage?

On a less rant-y note... I have to agree sweetheart. I love ballroom dancing too! and the song is amazing! school's killing me but it's times of reprieve like these which help me to gain my sanity. This week's gonna be crazy with non stop trainings and plans have been made back to back.  The sem's jus begun. When will it end?!

I find it ironic that the same governement who's encouraging us to procreate and have families, is also tearing couples apart. This may seem like a naiive observation but come on.. there's a fine line between defending the country and irrational behaviour. To make one who doesn't needa stay n stay in, oh, jus to be standardised is just retarded. and to force ur army personnel to attend functions when they should be at home spending time with their family or even their loved ones is verging on mindless and jus plain attempt to exert their power where it shouldn't be. FORCING ppl to go to a function ain't gonna make them enjoy it... that defeats the point of a dinner that's supposed to be enjoyed. They're not puppets. They're actual ppl who have a life and controlling them t such an extent is truly overdoing it. We hear so much of guys losing their gfs when they're in army. Is it any surprise considering how much the army thinks they OWN the men? once again, i repeat, they're still very much individuals and to deny them a choice in such frivolous functions is abusing your power. Furthermore, is this what you spend ur citizen's money on? forcing ppl to attend 'celebrations' where they won't enjoy themselves? y not make it voluntary? you'd have much more fun then.. and you wont have ppl continually lookin at their watches waiting for time to pass. As it is, you're taking up so much of these young men's lives. Must you take up their leisure too? To many who have lost their gfs in army, the girls den begin focusing on their studies and thus, their careers. and they complain that the girls are focused on their careers, marrying later and hence the population is ageing? WHOSE FAULT IS THAT?! come on man....unlikely as it is.. if any of you are reading this, maybe you could give a reason... or at least not continue doing such unneccessary things in the name of defence.

Amidst the barrage of tests and assignments due, it's near impossible to update my blog much. There's just been so much to do, and so much to think about. It's quite sad really, how the numbers in our lil MI clique has dwindled such that from once a week meetings, we barely speak to eat other much less meet up. A recent trip to the play The Vagina Monologues, was truly reminiscing and i did miss the fun, albeit bitchy, times. Close friends are hard to come by in NUS, wat with all the different lectures and tutorials, we probaby only see people once a week for oh, an hour? Like i was saying to my prayer 'triplet' (it's only the two of us cos Carmen's somehow disappreared), it's so different from secondary and pre uni days when one always hangs out with 'The Clique'. Guess, i jus gotta get used to it.. and to the fact that i have to discipline myself more now lest i fall into the abyss of slack-dom...

anyway, my boy jus gave me something to think about the other day. The idea that guys believe that they'e together with a girl, but so long as they haven't truly officiated it, the girl does not consider them truly together. I mean, come on.. i'm sure you want to be exclusive right? If you don't want her to go around flirting, you gotta let her know wat u feel and bring your status out into the open. Thing is, no matter how much you THINK u're together, the fact is, to most girls at least, the uncertainty of the situation would lead to her preferring to choose to believe that u're NOT together for fear of being too presumptuous. A girl especially would not want to go around teling ppl that 'hey! he's my bf!' when he hasn't directly told her anythin. This is one situation facing one of my friends now and i really dun c how hard it is to open your mouth and ask. If you're already at a stage where you're acting as a couple, you might just wanna confirm it?

Another issue. Sticky NS boys. Seriously. From what i've heard so far, and experience, i've come to a conclusion. All you NS boys with gfs out there. You wanna noe the reason WHY they'd leave you when u're in NS? It's cos you fear losing them so much that you hold on to them for dear life. you change. Not the girl. You become so overpossesive and temperamental that, at the end of the day, even the most tolerant girl who's head over heels in love would feel stifled and dream of greener pastures. The more faithful ones would obviously inform their guys (be it through msgs, phonecalls, face-to-face or blogs) and hope for the better. This belief about NS guys losing their girls probably started off with a rumour started by a totally insecure guy, and then it happens. All the boys ENTER with the perception that they might lose their girls, and start getting all edgy whenever the girl goes about social interactions etc. Obviously, you cant expect the girl to be a loner and just sit aside all the time or restrict her circle of friends merely to girls right? If you TRULY have faith in your girl, don't hold on so tight cos, holding on that tightly may work against you. Contrary to what you think,  it drives the girl away rather then keeping her with you.

Yep, that's about all for the day's ramblings. Stay tuned for more! (if i can afford it :p )

with the mid term tests and semester tests (same difference) coming, I feel insanely overwhelmed.. but whatever it is, i shall perservere... talking to Charm today actually made me realise that, much as i don't want to learn all the IT stuff they seem to force down our throats in CNM, i'm in it. and HELL, i'm gonna do my very best..three years in MI has already made me a year behind and, tempting as it is, i'm not about to give up so easily and opt for NTU mass comm... (stupid bree... y'd u choose NUS?!?!) oh well.. i'm not turning back!

You usually treasure something more when you realise how much a part of your life it is. This week, i realised that. Those late night talks until I fall asleep, those random msgs and acts of love.. I've missed all that this week... reducing it all to a mere less den an hour every night is pure torture and i jus hope you wont be made to stay in... They say to love someone is not when you can live with them... it's when you cannot live without them.. You've made yourself so much a part of my life... I love you so much... and truly truly miss you incredibly...

anyway, with regards to the previous post, many guys have msn-ed me... not to complain, surprisingly, but to agree! you cant help but agree with facts am i right? Anyway, recently, my bestie called me sounding really down... this is really surprising for one who's always chirpy... this is gonna sound sexist so i'll extend it to ppl of all genders... why is it that people seem to think that they can do anything whatsoever they want with another person( basically toy around with their feelings), den when they are questioned, they give some noble reason for not getting attached.  Where is the rationale in that, you can BEHAVE like a couple, but so long as you're NOT a couple, it doesn't really bother you. If you claim that there are many other commitments, or that you wanna maintain a friendship, or that you're afraid you'll hurt the other party, by leading them on through your words and actions, aren't you already hurting them? and by doing all the regular things a couple does, aren't you already taking up time from watever commitments you claim you suddenly have? If you wanna reject someone, do it properly. And if you're gonna reject someone, don't even lead them on in the first place... that's how players come about.. when they are played with. such that they no longer have faith in proper relationships.

which leads me to the next point. Fidelity. In an age where everyone is sleeping with everyone else, and divorce rates are increasing, how is anyone supposed to have faith? all around me are acts of infidelity, couples divorcing.. it happens so often that it's almost a norm... a couple is divorcing, so wat? boyfriends cheating on girlfriends, no big deal... I've been reading my CNM notes today about development and it's impact on culture. In my opinion, it's truly a new culture whereby faith is no longer needed, and loyalty is a mere word. In an age where a husband can be msging a mistress right under his wife's nose, and boyfriends can be msging three gals at once, or even where guys talk online to gals even though their display pic clearly shows them with their gf... and the thing is, some people actually don't mind the fact that they're attached, and may still flirt with others... there seems to have been a loss of morals.. increasingly so.. and with that begs the question... how does one trust fully?

Guten Tag!

Whoever said uni life was gonna be easier den taking A levels deserves to be shot! Uni life is like taking A levels for every single assignment, test or exam cos it all amounts to the final grade. Why am i ranting? cos i feel the heat... Much as i LURVE the fact that i'm in the school of my dreams, the dozen commitments and responsibilities which seem to be coming from every which way really piles down on one... I've had to drop one of my tuitions and am actually thinkin of dropping another so if anyone wants a pri school kid w a fussy mother jus tell me... CNM turned out to be one of the most disappointing aspects of uni life but i promise myself, i'll get over this first hurdle. This is merely the exposure module and when i get past it, i'll be able to choose modules which truly interest me. :):):) BTW, BREE HEARTS GERMAN!!! (although it means memorising a thousand and one words and GENDERS of words)...

Oh a shoutout to Drea, thanx for taking over SF!!! a real load off my mind. phew.. and good luck wth u know hu.. ;) u know, men nowadays are wimps. In the days of old, men courted gals even if they risked rejection. Now, those pampered mummy's boys are afraid they'd get rejected. The girls on the other hand,are unwilling to do wat is deemed as the 'guy's' job so as to get the guy to commit in a r/s. What this equates to is a very stagnant situation where neither makes the first move. No offence guys, okay what am i saying, this is sure to offend u sad useless cowards. Singaporean guys especially, have been so sheltered under the Asian mentality, how boys are the 'gems' of the family, that they've lost their chivalry, and along with it, their courage which appeals to girls so much. You wanna ask Y sg gals are going for caucasians? well that's cos the westerners aren't afraid to ask. Rejection? so wat? at least you gave it a shot. All you Singaporean guys can do is stick urselves up in the forums on the net, hiding you faces and ur identities and complaining about how sg gals are all goin for the western guys. Hey if u sit around on ur asses WHINING on forums or playing your computer games, is it any surprise that ur gals r getting snapped up? Some advice to you guys, get up off that ever expanding ass and get ur gal. hiding behind the computer screen whining to fellow whiners ain't gonna get u that gal u get it? And if EVER i find that any of u guys is playing around with MY galfriends, leading them on and not being serious, you're gonna face the wrath of Bree. No, not the traditional soft spoken Asian girl you guys look for, but a gal with character, and a gal who will tell u off if she thinks you suck. get that?

okay now i'm done with my mid-study ramble. Shall go off and memorise my der,die,das. Auf Weidersen!